Sunday, November 12, 2006

'Teary Sunday'

I think i started the sunday kinda in a low note. Last nite, pick up dearie with after moi work, & we went back home. hehe .. it has been quite sometime since dearie visit moi parent & stay over.

it rekindles the fine memories where we used to walk all frm the mrt station. Yeah .. it has been a while ago ... but i do enjoy the walk =) Had some light supper & watching cast away before we turning in.

We are tired but i cant get to slp .... after putting dearie to slp, i ... i cant slp ... it has been like 3 to 4 days i dont have a good rest. Sad .. but i know something is bothering me... yet i dont know what??? Dearie & i had a long chat ... ( she actually woke up ) n we turning in @ 4am .... OMG.. we r leaving for church @ 8 plus.. another sleepless nite.. sorry baby, know u are tired but u still listen to me .... Thank You ...

I dont have appetite for breakfast.. only had cofffee .. sure it toook ages for moi turn to order heh heh ... hai~! i just felt moi heart sink to the bottomless pit... i dont know what hit me again ... it sure comes with a 'BANG'. dearie was worry abt me... but i really dont what's going on.. & we went to sky garden to have a heart to heart conversation. abt work, abt us, abt life ... surely something is bothering me... i not sure what is it.. i dont know where's the root of the problem.

though i have been confessing what i learn but ... hai~! it dearie let me listen to a worship song - Through it all -

i close moi eyes n i start to tear... i couldnt control moi tears.. it just keeps rolling down moi cheek for whole of 5.17mins - length of whole song

i did feel unspeakable peace .. n we went to the quene as 2nd service is starting soon .. Praise God!! @ the praise n worship session, the 2nd worship song it's -Through it all - YEAH!!! moi tears couldnt control n starting flowing again.. this time we are @ the auditorium .. n ppl are every where.. & i tear.... same thingy i cant control moi tears. but this time rd... the burden in me just left .. GONE!!! i felt real peace in moi heart ... was that an coincidence? no, i believe moi Lord is present when dearie & i was @ sky garden .... n even pastor sermon also link with what i'm going through ... what else can i said ... Glory to God! amen ...

dearie have to leave halfway cause serving @ 3service. So i got quite a few good hrs by myself .. so i ask Him where have i gone wrong .... n slowly .. bit by bit i got the whole picture.

something happen causes me to be pretty sad when i'm @ work. n it bothers me big time.. then stress came by ... somehow, i got into jealousy.. i think it's a guys thingy .. & i'm not a saint .... something between me n dearie ... n it hits me hard .. really hard, thoughts of losing her is so real .. n i fallen into insomina for the whole wk... i felt so small .. so small .. =( n i totally try too hard to make things work.. n everything just frustrate me .... Thank God .. quieten me down n showing me. if not .. i think that's it for both of us..

I trust Lord & her .. but during the down period .. i cant do anything.. but lots of -ve thoughts in me. practically i forgotten how bless i am ... i have Lord n have a wonderful dearie..

well .. a long entry .. lol .. sorri ya ...

PrinteD by ::-: kur|zu-sAn:-:: [x] oN 11/12/2006 07:56:00 PM