Monday, April 25, 2005
YsT when I came back from Suntec, moi mum told me that Grand Pa(her dad) was admitted to NUH... was kinda worried at first but, as i prayed... i know roughly what happen...So immediately after invigilating EPT, i went to NUH.... OMG, when i reach the ward that he admitted... OMG... i nearly don't recongise moi very own Grand Pa... Since the last time i saw him was abt 1mth back.. he has lost so much weight that i can see his cheek bone just barely under his winked skin... -sOb- moi tears nearly drop when i see him.. it aches moi heart so much.. i have lot's of memories abt him... as a healthy old folk, traveling around by bus to visit his childrens/grand... =) but now.. he is laying on the hosptial bed....
Though moi sis & I were his external grand children, but he dotes us to the max when we were still kids.. whenever he strike 4d or toto.. he will definitely buy lot's of goodies!! toys!! for Us..
As we step into the Millennium, his health decline... but moi sis & pastor yew kong mange to get him save.. i remember he said: when he said the siners prayer, he saw 3 light bulbs.. 2 of the are shining bright.. but only one is not working.. there shortly, the not working bulb jus like up... & i believe one day we will meet in heaven again =) ...
Moi heart aches.. but i hold back moi tears, while holding his hand.. i pray.. Lord.. it's time for him to go.. come bring him home Lord.. stop the suffering he is going through now.. under the knives.. needles... dripper.. blood tests.. no more... i'm fighting to hold back moi tears at that point.. i can't make the atomsphere worst.. & i also try to quote scriptures in the bible to calm moi self but i simply can't remember any.... TiLL i heard The Lord Said: "Rest on me, contcentrate on the finish work instead." That's where i calm down alot!!
This morning, when moi mum visited him.. he can hardly recongize anyone... he can hardly even talk.. or swallowing the mouthful of water that he drinks or eat his food...
But when i was there he kinda recongize me.. & i chat with him.. but i can't heard what the said.. but it ended with a smile on his face... =) still.. he dont take his meals again... WHen the nurse came to take his blood pressure.. it's 80/60... really low... they thought that it's was an error made by the machine.. so they measure it manually... but moi grand pa.. try to struggle.. i hold onto his hand.. this time, moi tears jus drop.. & i start to pray... surprisingly i sense calm in moi heart...
shortly, therafter.. the guy nurse came n help moi grandpa to change up n feed him medicine.. soon he fallen aslp.. soundly.. so moi sis & i make our way home...
i pray.. let me rest & He will work things out for me... LorD, thank you....
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